Sweet Tooth and guilt

Sweet Tooth

Sweets have overtaken my being. I am craving chocolate, candy and many other not good for me things. I have stumbled on becoming the slave of the sweet tooth. It has been a challenge. I have ate a lot more sweets then I should. However, I have probably have not ate as many as I could be. At the beginning of the year I went grocery shopping and forced myself not to buy sweets. Because there is not a lot in my house it has made it easier to ignore my sweet tooth. Although, now I just buy it at work during my breaks. This has given me a great deal of guilt. I am cheating myself by taking advantage of no one watching me. I am still doing good about the soda, and drinking a lot more water. Will this sweet tooth ever go away? What am I going to do when Valentine's day comes around?

Birthday eats

Birthday Eats

My birthday happened on 1/10 and now it is over. I gave in and ate like I normally would. It was fried chicken like always for my birthday dinner. I sat down with a nice full plate, and also helped myself to some cake also. I felt ok with that because I have been doing really good and controlling myself lately. I have been focusing on portion control the most. My new snacks have become carrots, apples, and other healthy alternatives. I am down to one soda a day, which is much better then my normal. I find it surprising easy. I finally realize that I was eating other things out of boredom and because it was there. I would eat and eat until all the food was gone and not because I was hunger. That is what I did on my birthday but now it is back to normal. It really has not been to bad. 

Does day one really count??

Day One

Starting my new healthier eating habits seemed to have been met with unprecedented events. Unlike any other year, this first day of 2011 was met with a wedding. How do you eat healthier at a wedding? That wedding cake and cookies were screaming my name. When you stick a bunch of family in the same space you are just forced to eat. It is like there is a magnet drawing you to all of the bad-for-you type of foods. I am not sure how to reverse the pole in this attraction, nor did I really know how to choose the best foods to eat at a wedding. I did the best I could, but after speaking to some family members they told me that the first of the year does not count. It was told to me that the very first day of the year was a 'free' day, and I didn't have to worry too much about changing my habits. Do I believe them? I ate more then I wanted to (two sandwiches instead of one, and the second was a full one with all of the dressings.  I do think I did better then I normally would have because I had one small piece of cake. For anybody that knows me, that is a huge sacrifice.

The next biggest challenge

 

In a little more then one week, my birthday will be here. Should that day count??

The journey starts

The Journey Starts (1-1-11)

I have never been a person that wanted to join the bandwagon of those that vow to lose weight for the new year. This is probably why my weight is not 'ideal'. Weight loss is not my purpose right now, although it should be a side effect. My purpose right now is to eat healthy, and maintain a healthy lifestyle. Today I weigh 254lbs. This is 100 lbs over my ideal weight for my height. Up until this last year, I could eat anything I wanted to without any extra pounds gained. However, it seems it has caught up to me now. I don't know if this is the medication I have been on the last two years, or other health issues I have suffered from. I know I have bad habits to break including a chocolate addiction,  soda pop craving, and "lazy butt syndrome". I am committing myself to a new lifestyle change. I want to be more active and make better decision on what I eat. It is time to start a new year, and a new life.